Trust is an interesting concept. Sometimes it is simple to do, other times not so much. We spent time this weekend at Magnolia Landing, and I came to an even clearer realization that trusting and letting go led to a journey that seems surreal.
6 months ago, Ty stood in front of me, looked me square in the eyes, and said, “Your fear and doubt will stop any of this from happening.” He was right. I spent the next day deep in prayer and meditation. The 3rd step of The 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous states, “Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.” I know this step, and quite frankly, I took great comfort in living it. The harsh reality was that I was not living this step in ALL aspects of my life. Ty had already turned Magnolia Landing over, now it was my turn.
I think the hardest part was knowing how badly I wanted this…how much of my heart wanted it. If I turned it over, that meant I had to be open to God’s will and not mine. Could I accept that?
The beautiful part of trust, and trusting God- how ever you define it- that once we do it with our whole hearts, it allows for things much greater than we could have ever thought of. Alone, we can only do so much, but thru the grace of something much bigger than me or you the possibilities are endless.
Years ago, I read the book, The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. I often go back and re-read portions of it. While at Magnolia Landing this past weekend, I was reminded of a quote from this book.
“But if you believe yourself worthy of the thing you fought so hard to get, then you become an instrument of God, you help the Soul of the World, and you understand why you are here.”- Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist
Multiple experiences this weekend led to the quiet moment of reflection, realization, and simple contentment. I stood there in front of a house that is literally in the midst of being lifted up off the ground, I saw my children walking along the sandy beach of the property, and I took it all in. I’ve known for several months that this decision was one of the best decisions Ty and I have made, but at that moment, I understood it.
Yes, this is an endeavor that will provide so much for so many women and their families, and we are beyond grateful that we get to be a part of that, but what it is doing for our own family is so much more. I don’t know if we will ever be able to work hard enough to even come close to giving back what we receive, but I certainly know we will try.
The following blogs will be the story of Magnolia Landing, and why we chose this location. We will be documenting the reconstruction of the home and share with you why we often refer to the story of Magnolia Landing as “her story.” We hope you will follow along and share in this experience with us and our team as we anxiously await to serve the women who become part of Magnolia Landing.